Hello world !

Well, I finally am about to launch this site. I am finally finding the girl I lost, me!

I had many delays...Many many delays! So many projects sat on my desk, getting the dust of life!

I won't go into the details of 2017/2018 when I had losses, heartaches, and people who constantly relied on me.

Let's talk about the beginning of March of 2019 when I finally felt I couldn't do much. I felt blocked by life. I experienced 2 years of uncertainty about everything, and I'm talking " uncertainty about EVERYTHING".

First was my divorce, and I had to deal with a man I loved but couldn't live with anymore. My decision came Jan 11th, 2017 after about 3 years of going back and forth about " Should I get a divorce?". You see my ex is a wonderful guy. He is loved by many. An intelligent man and very kind. But I realized I will never going to be loved the way I wish to be loved. I struggled with that for a long time. He loved me but He wouldn't give up the things that made me upset. He, in my opinion, didn't compromise anymore...And as time went by, it got worst. He never thought that I would leave. I never thought I would leave but I finally decided its best for both of us.

The difficulties followed after I filed in 2017 into 2018..but finally he decided to chill in 2019...You see I married a divorce attorney..haha

Today my ex and I remain as close friends, platonic good friends, and that's just wonderful!

Then came my car accident ( horrible injuries) Feb 28th, 2019...My back, my knee, and my ankle...Won't go into all the details. Even talking about it hurts me...All I will say is I'm still going to the process of healing and I am not there yet...To be fully healed and be back to normal is my goal.

Then came the sale of my house and with it the sale of my life inside the house. it looked a museum inside. You see I waited so long to find my dream house, and I finally did. we lived in perhaps one of the most beautiful homes in town. A giant Victorian Big Sea Captain by the sea. I had almost half an acre of green land, a beautiful yard for all my organic needs. it was a tough choice to let it go..But too big for an eventual single woman.

Four giant floors...

I dealt with attorneys, realtors, AND worst of all a crook buyer. He brought us both to our knees, and at last minute he backed out for NO REASON. Thinking about this guy and his wife makes me nauseous. I guess in his mind he thought he can screw with a woman with a foreign name!!! well, I decided to take care of him, my way!!

he didn't know this woman. Although hurt mentally and physically but I got another buyer almost immediately and then that had its own issues.

He at the end killed my whole yard, left only two trees and painted over my 1892 antique ceiling.

The sale of my beloved house and the life inside took a huge toll...

part two of this blog will come soon...